I am so glad my mother had a wonderful birthday. There were bumps at the beginning of the day - of course - , but our time together was perfect and that is all the matters to me.

I am missing my baby so bad today. So much is running through my mind. It is on warp speed.

I was at work for a little bit today and I went to get a cup of water from the water cooler and after drinking 3 big gulps I realized there were gray bugs all throughout my cup. I drank gray bugs. I was not happy. Thank goodness I had a couple of people there who were able to help me find out more about the bugs. Apparently I should be ok...

I am very sad today. So much going on. I have realized that this blog is good and well not so good. I truly cannot write down everything in my mind as much as I would like to - I am sure certain people would read it and that may not be very good...

I have learned a lot of these past few days. I know those of who I can trust - and those who I can't. It is sad on so many different levels. Again, I can't write much more than that.

Sort of a cryptic post I would imagine. I am very very tired. I went to bed at around 5 am this morning. I cannot sleep.

I saw a beautiful, but dead, swan on the way home from work today on the side of the road. It was a beautiful swan, and I felt bad.

Off to do lots of homework.

All I can say is that no matter what anyone thinks of me in their pathetic twisted minds, I can look at myself in the mirror everyday and know I do not manipulate people and I do not lie about others - which is clearly a lot more than I can unfortunately say for some. Karma always comes.

Peace out, cub scout!